Sad

today's a sad day for me... a day that would be spent on clearing my work.. not wasting time on useless gaming and tv-watching. have absolutely no feeling to play.. or even slack around.. just wanna get things done asap... too many promises.. to little time...

im feeling much worse than 大禹 ... 三过家门而不入... passing by RJC everyday.. cant seem to get those memories out of my mind.. cant seem to forget the wonderful time spent there... cant seem to stop comparing NJ to RJ... there's just so much difference... that its just impossible to get it off my mind... im trying not to get distracted.. its tough...

den again... there's stuff that could shift RJ behind me.. most probably choir.. and no not becoz im totally engrossed in choir and totally enjoying it.. but its just coz of the long practices.. that makes me tired and sleepy.. at least that's a relief.. from the stress of those constant memories swirling in my freaking brain.. when im all alone.. it all comes back to me.. all of it.. the people.. the class.. my og.. the teachers... the environment.. everything...

2 years is all... people keep telling me that... its just 2 years... its not gonna make much of a dif.. well NS is 2 years too... how come people make such a big deal out of it?... isint the 2 years of NS the same time period as the 2 years in JC?

sigh... 2 years in JC.. in a JC that seem so distant to me... not in a JC that i so longed for... passing by it everyday.. the memories.. guess its gonna be there for a while... for a long while.... off.