Well well well, its 28th already?!

I was viewing random websites and suddenly feel like changing my blog url, to my horror, shabbies.blogspot.com was taken! GUESS WHAT?! Its some website that mocks indian advertisements, and its inactive.
Here's the link: CLICK ME

Tmr's the day i finally go for my FTT, after postponing for like 2 months. Still, i have no idea when's the time for the test, better go check it out online soon. You know, i get awfully worried for the test, no idea what type of questions will be coming out and how bad (i presumably assume its bad already) i'll fare in it.

Shabbies has got to face the fact sometimes, and not hang on to wayward dreams that are too distant to be coming true. He thinks that the world's a simply place, yet the complexity of humanity is a difficult concept to grasp. In times like this, its better to just simply let go, and hope that all comes well. When it comes to choosing friends and those to hang out with, I have no doubts that my choices are good ones, yet it is sometimes difficult to understand what they expect of you, and how you should act in front of them. Too much and they think you're an ass. Passive and they think you're emo-ing.

Shabbies is going to be a real busy guy soon, with all the driving lessons having to be packed into a short period of 40 days. With 20+ lessons to complete, do the math and it ends up with a lesson every alternate day. Coupled with my part time job at my dad's, its hard to find time to do the things that i truly want to do.

Some say time heals all wounds. Others say the sands of time will smooth out all blemishes of social relationships. Perhaps its about time i let time take over. Let the sands brush itself across the platform of all relationships. The world will be a much better place for me. I think.
Its pretty hard to identify the things that actually bug me - those that are deeply entrenched into my heart from those that are just a thing of today. Yet, the confused state of the mind never fails to combine those 2 together, making a huge mess of it. Only time will be able to differentiate them.

The 10 days in China, being out of reach, seems so joyous. I thought I could let go of everything. Escapism seems to be the easy way out for me. Yet when im back here, it all comes back now. Things that i thought i've given up on came back to me. Things that i thought were gone all returned to me. What can i do to get rid of them. What should i do?

Yup, time's the thing. A little time off perhaps.

Shabbies yacks on.

ken off.

Hey, merry xmas to all. Its been a wonderful year isn't it. HAHA.

Clearly I don't have much of a clear head right now. I'M ALL ALONE! MY BROTHER LEFT ME FOR BOSETAN. oh well, face it, you've got to be alone for the next 5 days or so.

You know, when it comes to Christmas, who can ignore everyone's dearest pal, lil old santy claus. Even though he may not even exist and Singapore has no chimney big enough to shuff his butt in, he's still a prominent figure in malls and shopping areas around this time. Not to mention his bodily figures ain't the most welcoming sight to have at the entrance of these areas. Anyone agrees? Doubt so.

You know, Christmas is not exactly the favourite time of the year, and yes it's not the first time i'm mentioning it. It really sucks badly when your mum abandons you for a mahjong game at the neighbours. HEY ITS CHRISTMAS DARN IT. But there seems to be nothing for me to do about it. My dad, oh well he's out doing his stuff. He's always a busy man, and most of the time, I never really get to see him at all even, especially during school days. But nowadays, with my holidays, i can finally have some time to go hang out with him.

My family never really had the tradition to celebrate Christmas. All my years, I've never had a Christmas tree at home. Probably the only time I've ever had Christmas was when my cousin that used to live next to me (before he became such as ass) had once and invited all of us over for Christmas. After that, I've even forgotten how a Christmas tree feels like. Well, a buddhist family never gets to celebrate Christmas. You know, for once you decide to not spend Christmas with your friends and goes home to your family, only to have them all abandon you, leaving you alone with your grandpa. HEY THAT SOUNDS GREAT DOESN'T IT. IT SOUNDS LIKE A WHOLE LOT OF FUN. YIPPEE!~~

clearly sarcasm.

Oh well, the only thing I got with me is my TV and computer, and I think i should just drown myself in self-pity, watching TV and waiting on people to pop up on msn and say hi.

hi.

Shabbies is bored.

ken off.

Merry Christmas peeps. anyway, here's like the first post after a's.

Life's been pretty hectic for me nowadays, with driving lessons and my part time job at my dad's to contemplate with, its tough to find time for myself. Oh well, here goes to holidays. I'm finding holidays pretty boring, with nothing much going on and with myself having done majority of the stuff that I've decided to do for the holidays.

With myself enlisting on the 25th Feb, it makes me wonder of the time that I've left and how am I supposed to spend it. I was told that time flies when you enjoy, and yet during the holidays, time seems to be creeping. I'm not exactly enthusiastic about NS, but listening to all the fun things that my pals had in their first weeks, it makes my heart itch.

Well, back to the less emotional stuff. China was not as bad as I thought it'll be. When I first arrived, I thought China's gonna be like the worst overseas trip I've ever been to, but hey, ITS NOT THAT BAD AFTERALL!

You guys might think that China's all that well, all rich since they're like living in a booming economy, but the truth is that, the city areas are magnificent, the rural ones, less so. In fact, the rich poor disparity is so high that according to my "distant relative" (in which I've never seen before prior to going there), a rich guy's income per month could last them like for year. In fact, it could even allow them to bring up a child all the way up till adulthood, not including university tuition fees of course.

Throughout my 10 days there, I've been to the rural-est of areas, where they merely need like 5 SGD per day to survive, to the richest of places, where 5 SGD couldn't even get you a cup of decent coffee. With my handy-dandy videocam, I took a hell lot of pictures, like close to 300 shots with nearly an hour of video. My photography skills amazes even myself. haha

Oh and I haven't mentioned about my driving lessons at all. The 1st introductory lesson made me piss in my pants. Well, I was close to doing that. You know, when the instructor says, "go ahead, do what you deem fit", you know that you're gonna get yourself in lots of shit. Lets see, the stats show that on average, i stall the car twice per lesson, all thanks to the insane amount of stalls I've had during the first few ones. Recently, lessons been pretty alright i guess, sort of got the trick to driving, but I'm still worried about reversing. This's been my deathtrap, I can't even reverse properly in games, not to mention real-life.

You know, with less viewership on my blog, it makes it all easier to type things. You no longer have to worry about, "hey what happens if who-who reads my blog and misunderstands me". All these crap go away along with viewership, and I find this a rather pleasant thing. At least I feel free-er. When one of my ex-classmates wanted to ask for my blog, I told him to go find out for himself, and miraculously he did! I'd never knew how he did it, like never ever! Oh, and hi if you're happening to be reading this post. You know who you are kiddo.

Someone told me, "A blog is like a girlfriend, you think of lots of things to say when you're away from it, and yet when you're right in front of it, you turn dumb". Sounds awfully true to me. Normally I think of what to type outside, but when I log right into blogger, I totally lose it. Well, today's an exception. All these crap's impromptu and totally off my brain. So if you do your math and divide the number of words written in this post into the number of days I've stopped writing, it seems an awfully small amount. And yet, I CAN TRULY CLAIM THAT I DO THINK OF A LOT OF THINGS TO BLOG ABOUT EVERYDAY!

Christmas eve today, and yet I don't think I'm feeling the joyous feeling yet, it seems all too fake. People merely go to Orchard Road to immense in the atmosphere, without truly understanding the spirit of Christmas, spending quality time with your family. I missed celebrating Christmas with my family last year, and hell no am I going to do the same this time around.

Oh and I truly hope that all turns well with Lyn and Aloy. They are like the closest of couples I've ever seen, and I hate to see them breakup. Besides the superficial idea that IF they happen to split, I'll lose my discount at buying computer stuff, they're like the best of cousin and future cousin-in-law one can ever dream off. May the spirit of Christmas guide them back into the arms of one another. Enjoy.

Shabbies ratters on.

Ken off.