1st April

woah hoho.... april fool's day -.-.. nth much happening eh.. i dun really recalled getting pranked on at all.. haha.. oh well.. shldnt i be glad?

somehow, im feeling that i dun seem to understand people as well as i thought to be at first.. somehow, their actions buffles me... i dun really get wad they mean, or wad they intend to signal to me thru their messages.. sigh.. im losing my touch as one who has deep empathy towards others..

today's practice was none to say, normal.. life goes on even during the SYF season, and seeing other performing arts getting the results that they wanted, im starting to feel the heat of the competition.. the need to face up to the challenges and the standards of the people, the need to maintain the high standard set by our seniors with their past achievements.. eugene told me that he wants to cry on the day of the results, saying that he wishes that he'll weep tears of joy.. that brings me to another point, what happens otherwise?.. wad if we dun meet our expectations and fall below par.. wad if.. lots of "wad if"s to think about.. the consequence seems ever so daunting..

and people are misunderstanding me too.. gheez.. wads this world coming to.. wad has the ever cheerful people that i know of becoming to.. i dunno how to react to this.. sigh.. the world's changing.. i dunno.. aiyo..

sigh im off to do my stuff..
ken off.